Mommy Guilt

I have so much mommy guilt today. You are home from school for the 3rd time this week due to horrible diarrhea. I feel helpless because I can't stop it. If I were to ask someone advice, they would most likely tell me to feed you certain foods. Well, that doesn't work in this household. Nobody seems to get that you eat about 5 foods, none of them nutritious or healthy in any way. So this leads to more guilt that I can't get you to eat the foods your body so desperately needs. I have a confession to make- a few months ago at your private therapy clinic, I watched as a mom lovingly tube fed her young daughter in the waiting room. I was so jealous of them which led me to wonder why I would wish a feeding tube on my sweet boy. After several days I realized that it was actually about the fact that even though her daughter couldn't feed herself, the mom was able to put yummy, nutritious foods into her child's body for her. Meanwhile, I feel like such a failure as a mom for not being able to help you. You hate  feeding therapy with every fiber of your being. For this reason, I avoid doing it with you like the plague. I can't help but think that a "Supermom" would do it anyway just to make some progress. I guess I'm not that mom.

Daddy thinks it's your new supplements that are causing your tummy issues. But we are on week 6 of them so I have a hard time believing that. You have also been throwing up in the middle of the night about twice a week. I can't explain that either.