I'm pretty sure that most people would say consider their spouse their other half. For me, you are my world. Ever since you started back to school, I am having such a hard time. I feel like I can't breathe when you aren't here. I watch the clock and countdown the hours (and minutes) until you come home. I realize that this isn't healthy for me as a mommy but I don't know what else to do. I can't help that I miss you so much. I feel like I need a Xanax just to drop you off at school. This morning your lower lip came out as I walked away. I got in the car and sobbed. In fact, it's been almost 2 hours and I'm still crying as I write this. I know you like school and that transitions can be hard for you, but your teachers say that you always have a good day. I didn't like going to school when I was little (probably anxiety related) so I feel extremely guilty for sending you. Since you can't tell me how you feel about school, I just assume the worst. I know, this is my problem not yours but it is still so so hard.
Love, your heartbroken mommy
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